Let me give you an example. There are weeks that my husband and I go with saying very little to one another and sometimes it's only to get on the other for doing something we think should or shouldn't have been done. We grow impatient with our kids and with one another and completely forget to put ourselves in the shoes of the other. He has no idea what my day entailed and I have no idea about his daily struggles, so simply communicating about these things would put a stop to all the negativity that comes with getting stuck in the "rut" of life. We are selfish instead of selfless and our kids see this in how we react to certain situations and each other. We love each other without a doubt, but do we live a life that shows our children how marriage should really look? Do they have an example of what God intends parents to be like? Do they feel secure and confident in themselves by the way we treat them? 
This past week, Kermie and I took a much needed vacation with all intents and purposes to refuel and get back to passionately loving one another the way we once did. My heart was set on coming away from this experience with compassion, understanding, and patience for one another. The very moment we set off on the plane, I knew this was going to be a great week. We were both excited about the idea of no responsibility or schedule to adhere to. We would do whatever we wanted to do and in the process make memories that would enable us to come back home better people. Have you ever had a moment that you wish you could pause and stay in forever because it was as close to perfect as you think possible? Well, I had so many moments like that this past week that I'm sure I drove Kermie nuts telling him I never wanted them to end. Waking up in a huge, comfy bed whenever I felt like waking up was one. Sitting on the beach with no time limit or child to worry about was another. Swimming in a cove off of the Keys with the most breathtaking view was another. Laying by the pool with a book in hand and a whole day to waste was another. And, I could go on and on for days. I really enjoyed the small things this week and am so thankful to have had the opportunity to have those "perfect" moments and more importantly to share them with the man God placed in my life as my soul mate. Yes, we are different. Yes, we argue. Yes, we drive each other batty. But, NO we will not let our differences get in the way of loving each other to our fullest ability. He honestly makes me a better person and I can only hope that I do the same for him.
So, as we were preparing for our return to reality, I tried to tell myself that there would be two choices in how to handle life as it presented itself.... to exist just to exist or exist with a purpose. I'll tell you now that I chose the later and will continue to do so as long as God promises me that my life has more meaning than those monotonous days I grow accustomed to. I want to exist to inspire others, see the best in all people and situations, and love fully without reservations. In order to do this though, I know that I will need Him to keep refueling and reminding me of the way. I want my heart to constantly break for others. I want my pride to be humbled. I want to be motivated to be better and live the life that was intended for me. I want to be compassionate in all situations. And, I want to lead. I'm tired of just living. I want to change the world and I'm starting with my own family with His help. So, when you are saying your prayers each night, please keep me and my family in mind. I'm ready for God to do big things within our hearts.
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